Archive | July 2016

When?

When will life get easier?

I don’t recall my grandparents struggling like we do, everywhere I turn everyone has absolutely the perfect life…..until tomorrow, when all the shit hits the fan and they can barely pull their chins off the floor.

Seriously, for everything from money to jobs, kids and relationships….it just seems to be such a struggle.

I get annoyed with my husband because he gets upset at something and then its just gone.  The problem is not gone, he has just swept it away.  He even seems to re-write history so if you talk to him about the problem in a year….no matter how big or bad it was, he has “no clue” what you are talking about.  But you know what?  Maybe that’s a handy talent to have!  There are certainly many things I wish I could forget about.

Recently I went through what I think is one of the saddest events of my life, I think particularly because I had to actually choose the thing I did not want.  I still look at it each day with a touch of sadness.woman-with-her-head-in-her-hands

There were some benefits, but I wish I had not had to make that choice.  So I take 1 day at a time.  Tomorrow it will be 2 weeks, things have adjusted, but not a minute of my day goes by when I don’t wish it was different.  What’s the saying….if you love something set it free?  It sucks.

So instead I try to focus on work, working out, meal prep, taking care of inner me.

Only 1 big problem with all that…..I’m still so fucking horny! *sigh*