So I did a beginning of the year post, you can read it if you want to be up to date and as I am still battling I figured I would update the status.
Let’s see, I had wanted to read more, almost daily, but for sure a few times a week….sadly 2016 has given me less than 1 reading session per week, not at all what I had wanted.
I had planned to take a day a week for courses, but between everyone’s emergencies, work overload and general demands I’ve been lucky to have 1 day a month. Still, better than before.
I have managed to up my workouts, which makes me feel strong and happy. I have managed to get some control on my drinking…..still have my moments but everyday is it’s own battle.
Sadly my “me” time and / or alone time has dwindled even more. There have been guests, there have been “dinners” and “visits” and I feel like I am constantly tethered, and not in a fun way :).
Things are starting to quiet down, but May has the look of an almost comical rash of visitors and “events”. Might need to start wearing sunglasses cam just for the “Oh yes it did happen” value!
Oddly I have made a new friend…..I say oddly because he’s not into kink, but wants sex so we have sex. He’s older, retirement age older, but the time we spend together is just quiet and low pressure. I feel like I escape the stress and pressure in my life; we chat, we drink wine, we have sex…..more wine and chatting….and we carry on with our lives. But, to update this, he has expressed an interest in some kink so we will see where that might go….
Happily last week I did get a very rough bbc fucking….that was nice for a few reasons. Well obviously for the fucking, but also because of the unpredictability. I list and plan most everything, so when something is not on my list….it freaks me out a little. Alright, maybe more than a little. But regardless, the stress relief of having my hands bound, my ass and pussy spread and exposed…..and not quite knowing what was “coming” next…..very beneficial. Takes me a bit to process, initially I freak out some, but the after affect was (is) good.
So I continue to struggle towards what I want, but I am not giving up. I have come to recognize that I can be very happy alone, if all these other things are in place, so I have begun to try to make more space for me, and what I need.
Might be a boring no sex post so here…..a cleavage pic!