It’s odd, in all my life only 2 shows/movies have reached me in an emotional way.
Lots of people cry at movies, even Hallmark commercials, but it’s not my thing. I’m not a chick flick person, I hate emotional movies, I love crime and mystery and blood.
But 1 show and movie made me truly feel the pain. It may sound odd, but Sex and the City, the episode where Carrie told Aidan about Mr. Big moved me to the core. I have always felt that often people tell their partner that they have cheated only to relieve their own guilt, in fact I have lived with that guilt and I know that the pull I felt to confess, was to remove the weight from my shoulders, and put the burden onto him.
I felt her conflict, I felt his pain, and hers, after she told.
Then the movie, when Mr. Big is conflicted about the marriage; Carrie’s pain on the honeymoon, it was palpable, and that I felt.
Most recently, the show “Saving Grace”, she has hit and killed a child with her car (sorry to be an episode spoiler), it is a complete accident, but the hopeless pain she feels, how it’s something she can’t take back, can’t fix; I could feel it. How she wishes she could go back in time…and not drive down that street; I feel it.
How they both just want to be alone; to suffer alone, to process alone, and to hopefully move on alone, eventually. That is how I feel when I get down.
What I am most curious about is why. Why do I identify with these painful situations? Why do I feel a lump in my chest, sick to my stomach, and tears in my eyes from these, but not from anything else?
Are the actresses that good? Are the scripts? Or is it something else? Something I have yet to figure out?
“Food” for thought….