So putting one foot in front of the other is my mantra.
I miss my routines, I miss my friend, I struggle not to be sad.
But last night I did something I know I’m not ready for; I looked at Craigslist.
All the ads just seemed so superficial…..they probably are. Lonely or drunken people posting to satisfy the urge of the moment, I need something deeper. Something that will make me feel cheap, not easy *smile*.
I still don’t know if I looked at CL to find something, or to convince myself that there is nothing out there for me, either way it made me sadder.
When I had a Fetlife acct it did not do much for me, I ended up being contacted by more fakes or people looking for online play, than anything else. I am past that.
If I am to continue my explorations, I want to do it in person. Which is not easy, considering that I am not free. I am actually leaning towards a female, a Domme, but there don’t seem to be many on CL.
Anyway….just some thoughts…..ttyl…..beth